fine fresh fierce

oh blogsite.. i missed you a lot. it has been a whirlwind and a total roundabout of scenario  but thanks be to God i am still here, fine, fresh, fierce ;)

Fine
i am totally wrecked of all the challenging things ive been through.
I am still fine from all worries i had some of them i created in my ownself. Expectations i swirled from my thoughts that i was constantly insisting to happen in reality. Reality means experiencing how truth hurts-- and it is fine because it only shows how greatly you loved. I am fine despite the crushing feelings of asking myself what i did wrong and seeking my self worth amidst terrible emotions of being doubtful of my importance.

I am fine because i prayed. I am fine because of my family and friends. I am fine because i was able to experience such great emotion that led me to answer my own question why i love someone. I am fine because love never gives up. I am fine because i still believed when everyone does not. I am fine because of certainity in God's love.

Fresh
if you can think of it, you can do it..
Nothing is impossible if you permit it- ENT :)
oh such courage to step up and grow.
I can even imagine that i am doing things i was just dreaming of in the past years..
I feel fresh to start it all over again :)

Fierce
I have not seen myself angry.
But i am fierce to fulfill my church duty. I am fierce for my family, for those who appreciate me and made me feel that i am worthy. I am fierce to still understand and give extreme chance to someone who deserves it.

I am fierce to purse my dreams. To pray for someone worth having and waiting for..
and before 2016 ends.. i will be fiercer for myself so that there will be no one to hurt me.  I will be fiercer to stand up and pray for love :)

i am so happy to read my past entries and realise how ive gone from where i belonged.
I am fierce and ready for the future ahead.. :)

thank you August xD

Just a statement for August.. this month my life changed. Thank you august.. you pushed me down and down some more but thank you for shaking me and having my life revamped 360 degrees! now i am where i am ought to be :) :) it was hard so hard, but i know it will be very worth it :) :)

I am deeply motivated right now, thank you for letting me empty my hands and heart to make space for better things and lovely people :) August you made me stronger, not just hungry but starving for victory..!

the sun, wind and sand =) Calaguas Cebu Palawan escape ;)

and im on it =)

haha..where have you been lately reader? as for me, oh well..been busy but my travels and adventures will not be complete without a blog entry!

let's get started..=)

Last April, i wasnt really going to join our Calaguas trip.. but sometimes you have to say yes to that travel escape..

Oh Calaguas..such a beauty..no caption needed

We started the trip from philcoa that evening with my make up on after my pictorial that night for my graduation haha =)sorry for being late haha
That morning, we just woke up and we were already in Daet Camarines Norte.. we headed up to Vinzon's port to ride a banca for like 2-3 hours and what we saw after that water travel was way beyond my expectation.. super clear and clean shoreline. fine sand and that vibe that is welcoming us from that looooong travel.. really, the travel was worth it.. one thing i cant forget in Calaguas, is when we looked for a mat and just slept under the tree because it was so hot that time, we cant stay inside the tent. so what we did was to sleep on a mat under the tree and just enjoy the sun and the wind and the sand haha..

oh before that Calaguas trip,was the Tagaytay birthday of mam isan! haha its so nice to spend time with your friends, Bulalo in Tagaytay still the best =)

and then.....
Helloooo Visayas!!! team sulit conquers Cebu...
i think this is the most awaited travel of our group..or am i wrong because its just July???haha and there are still months in 2016 where we could go to places we listed in our bucket lists..haha

Thanks to travelbee and travelpod, to kuya Efren? kuya ronel and his technique to get clear pictures with the gopro hahaha
1st day: Canyooneering! where did i get my guts to do this kind of thing?! but no regrets..conquered!
walang tatalo kay james lucas...haha oh yes thanks to Canyoneering, all is well bati na sila haha
"its better to try and fall than never try it at all" haha

2nd day: Oslob whale watching and Sumilong sand bar
magnificent view..one of a kind experience with the fish giants haha

3rd day: Sky walk and Danggit buying
woah... fear of heights conquered talaga haha! the dinner buffet was a blast =) so nice
Danggit buying panalo true mark of Cebuanos..Daghang Salamat Cebu!


My Graduation...actually, i was not really so excited about my graduation, but at some point, when i remembered all the challenges i overcame, on top of that is my parents support to me while doing my assignments until 3 am then i still have tupad at 4am.. that thing was because of God's love. #feuMANgraduate

then i bought my own keyboard na =)

then...Palawan..=)
i came to Palawan not for travel but for work. but during my travel to palawan, i learned a word-- Bleisure- business and leisure..oh life, is about making the most out of it ;p

Puerto Princesa Underground river, mangroves, forests and plants.. such a nice place to relax and the healthy food is great =)

El Nido..yessss ive been to El Nido haha.. Kayaking check! snorkling check.. but i miss my team sulit =( small lagoon and big lagoon and secret lagoon =)

Honda Bay..great escape with GAD VAWC advocates mam isan and sir rawie haha
PAL experience..galing i was craving for tea and banana cake then suddenly yun ang snack yey!!


lessons in my little travels..
enjoy the moment
do your work first if you have work haha
dont forget pagsamba- feeling of being guided in your travels is just unexplainable
call someone you can share the memories with..=)
eat their food, be nice to people, take pictures
lastly..share smiles and positivity

really, life is meant to be traveled..

hi Bora in a while ;)
my dream Batanes...when can is see you? =)

an encounter with an 86-yr old woman who is stronger than me :)

my first entry for 2016! :)

a bit  sad that  i had no entry  for  the first two months, that includes February?!
oh well 2016 was a bit of a working year but oh yeah its just the first quarter and i think im on the right track although there were many struggles i hope i can make it through a #NoPressure2016 haha!

January! #itsOfficial for ate fle greben and Dave :) alright!! haha
February-  to infinity pool and beyond.. Laiya experience  with team sulit and opd friends :)
my instagram post explained everything during my birthday.. i am expecting of some good things to happen when actually God wants me to give my trust to him as He is trusting me on smaller things :)
This month, i just saw someone so happy  while  buying his musical instrument, it was  so priceless, seeing him so happy during that moment was beyond words to explain :)


I am writing this entry to share my experience this morning while i was a little bit in a hurry for my church duty, i had to walk 50 meters to the village gate to ride a tricycle on my way to Kapilya when an 86-year old woman asked me, sasamba ka po? i uttered "ai opo kayo din po?, sabay na po tayo" she walked slow and at the back of my mind, "baka malate ako" oh no, she talked to me like my grandmother, like any lola would talk to her grandchildren na paulit ulit ang kwento.. she carried a flashlight and told me "sabi ng anak ko, hindi daw ba ako natatakot mag isa? baka daw matumba ako sa daan, (the old woman saying to his 63 yr old son who suffered stroke whom she is taking care in their house) sabi ko sa anak ko, "hindi ako nag iisa, kasama ko ang Diyos". that words strucked me.

as we get near the tricycle station, i remembered the link i posted "being happy alone", a good read but i was looking for something in that article, at some point it did not captured or answered my inner thought about being alone and being happy. because i think being alone is a bit sad..

Anyway, that encounter with that old woman gave me a quick reminder that God is just quiet during a test, He is always there for us. And we should always trust Him. easier said than done but that's how life goes, He knows the plans He have for us..

And another great line in the article i read today at Phil Star that says - God, cant you just hurry it up?  -In a sense you are a project under construction, you are his handwork, a person becoming what He wants. Please be patient: you are a work in progress :)
now i got my answer. :)

a reminder to my friends at my age:
Sometimes we hurry too much growing up that we forget that our parents are also growing old.
appreciate our family and our parents, they are a blessing from God that we must always treasure :)

to the woman i encountered this morning, thank you for inspiring me with your firm faith :)

Thank you 2015! :)

Just a few hours away we will bid goodbye to 2015.. oh Sepanx! haha
i cant help but to be a little emotional because 2015 has been really a great year! there were so many blessings in life that i received and the best part of it was spending it with the people close to my heart..

this entry would just be a wrap up of 2015 and here it goes:
January was a blessed month- EVM pastoral visit at Mt Heights was just one of a kind experience. He allowed me to be there. promise.
February- a lovely month :) a perfect month haha Vietnam travel haha!
March- April affair haha read my blog entry
May- Viva Vigan adventure :)
June- oh Haler Baler! surfing check!
July- 101 INC anniversary :) #fightForFaith
August- Wakeboarding haha! #onewithEVM
September- happy happy birthday ;p
October- a tough month defense, struggles and tests of faith.. that Philippine Arena experience watching Felix Manalo was amazing! and the rest will be history.. ;)
November- oh who can forget #meantToBeBicol adventure with team sulit :) i so love it :)
December- defense check! goal met.. blessed month for team sulit friends :)

and that's it, my happy 2015.. the year end thanksgiving songs was just appropriate
"Through bitter persecution and adversity,
Never did You leave me in misery.
When I cried for help You answered with miracles.
Because of You, all things are possible."

2015 was a very blessed and beautiful year, though its hard to let it go, i will continue to trust God for His plans and ways are if not better, the best :)

It meant being happy and being strong for people who look up to me and believed in me, this year my heart felt gladness and i am thankful for everything that happened, no regrets. :)
Thank you 2015! tight hug...:) i will always cherish and look back to the good things thank you!!

hello 2016.. #wiser #moreMeaningful #reachingOut #bigtravels2016 #HopingPrayingPatientlyWaiting :) :) #INCforever Glory to God.. salamat po Ama :)

#meantToBeBicol: teamsulit conquers Legazpi

and this is it, the blog entry that will complete our travel adventures.. this trip is so special for many reasons and i may not be able to list them all but i tell you it was a #meantToBeBicol trip ;)

let's get it on! :)

walang makakapigil..haha
During the APEC when almost the most powerful leaders will come to the Philippines and will land at NAIA on Nov 17-19, thanks God our flight was not cancelled, just 2 flights left going to Legazpi that morning of Wednesday :)

From once in a bluemoon experience in the ER, :) beautiful experience haha
we headed to NAIA terminal 3 and waited over night just to make sure we will not be left and to make necessary changes for our travel, no hassle :) good thing we were able to check in through web and printed our boarding passes to lessen the stress in the airport..

1st day.. ZzzZzz day
Because most of us were from duty that day, when we arrived at Legazpi airport, everyone was yawning already. we tasted the Sili ice cream and as expected, it was spicy but something new to taste   :) the weather was unpredictable when we arrived at Legazpi. but..the energy was still there haha
after putting our things at hotel, we looked for a kapilya :) :) then... in the afternoon, it was the best day ever haha

ATV ride.. they say, it is the highlight of the trip to Legazpi. i tell you, it was. ;) =) haha
the motorcycle raging through the trail was not an easy thing to conquer, its hard to drive in the middle of the trail through the watery swamps haha but thanks to Dave who drove the atv..atv tayo ulit haha ;p

2nd day: Matnog island hopping super
check! :)
it was my first time to ride a boat that long, but seeing the white sand beaches was beyond words :) plus the fact that i got to enjoy the boat ride with the team, we had fun from sun up to sun down :)
the encounter with fishes at Juag fish sanitarium was a privilege.. haha thanks to sir jayrick and as i promised to state in my blog that if tourists want to have interaction with the fishes, (not all visitors were allowed) contact first the owner of the lagoon to make a prior schedule :)
It was so nice to see a starfish for the first time and i also saw Nemo haha.. ;) lovely underwater experience :)

3rd day: Cagsawa ruins, falls and the night party haha
the Cagsawa ruins seems a beautiful picture for me not until i was able to see it for real :)
we were able to eat Pinangat and taste coconut and sili haha
the falls was not so clear when we went and it was creepy finding out that we were only the ones left there in the place. not even the caretakers gave us information that they will leave the place..
Bbq party at sir Padi's house.. sarap! :) the dinner, music, laughter, stories and bonding was priceless :) memorable experience :)

this Bicol trip will not be like this if it wasn't because of sir Jayrick haha thanks sir Padi (pare)
and thank you po Volta! :) we learned many lessons and it was so worth remembering.. again i was able to spend it with the people whom i want to share my special moments with :)
Thanks God for a safe travel, for a great company and for the guidance in all our travels.. more to come! :) #teamsulitTravels

it was a meant to be Bicol trip because despite the challenges, we can say we saw the Mayon volcano for real :) it may be simple but seeing my friends happy makes me happy too :) may forever sa Bicol haha ;) :)

Thankful no matter what :)

wow! good thing i can also write blog entry through my phone, :)
all i can say right now is thanks be to God :)

this blog entry is so special it will be about the things that made me happy lately :)
haha!


The CSC fun run was really fun..sweating out a bit and running made me stronger, exercise and healthy living is really the foremost priority of an individual if he wants to stay fit and enjoy life.
thanks to sir mark barican, for that urban run.. haha in search for an atm in the heart of the metro.. food trip with teamsulit haha! the best XD

Surprise!!
goal met..i saw Dave happy. even it was just the day before his birthday.. just let the pictures speak.. :) a picture cake that turned into reality.. thanks dazzle! :) im thankful for the people who can turn your ideas into reality :) the piano cake was so beautiful.. :)

Felix Manalo movie at the Philippine Arena :)
superb experience. amazing. inspiring.
if i will be given the chance to say how i felt after i watched this movie, i would say it in this short concise statement: i am thankful i am member of INC.
truly FYM is a blessing from God. After watching the movie, i can say to myself that if i will encounter struggles and problems in life, i am will be braver because these are incomparable to those things experienced by the brethren from the times that INC was just starting. I am so blessed i got to spend the movie experience with Dave, i couldnt imagine spending it with someone else as appropriate. He is the perfect companion while watching FYM.. :) It was an awesome instance, things just fell into place :) thanks also to my dad :) It was a night to remember :)

Defense day XD
i am expecting for the worse to happen. i am so down and consumed. But looking into the bright side of it, hard is what makes it great. If it were easy, everyone would do it. I am always praying that may God give me intelligence and perseverance as i finish this task. I know in time it will be worth it. I have to learn it the hard way because its not just as easy as like that, and i have to understand all the concepts. Second chances are not always given, i promise not to ruin it.. i am still thankful because of the people around me who turns out to be life's blessings. My family and friends are my inspirations. :) They make the endurance a bit easier..

Life goes on.. success does not come to us, we should find and meet it. :)