sad irony..

how do you understand the word no?
just when i am ready to hear the word yes, i was slapped with a no.
give me the chance to say what i really feel right now. just when i thought the thing i really wanted where i poured my full effort into would be given to me, it was revealed to me the other way around.

the v.luna training will not materialize at this moment.
it was my fault. circumstances would not permit it. i am 5 days late from the didactics.
what makes it hard for me, is that i have already set my mind that i will be there for 7 months, the family is just so happy about it, i already had the permission from work.

and now, unexpectedly, i saw myself standing in front of the coffin of angie reyes..praying that he rests in peace, i thanked him for what he did for our country. i want to be as successful as he was. as strong, as intelligent, a man with integrity, with a real heart for his family.

i need some time to fully accept what happened.. one thing for sure..one thing i tell you, a lesson is learned, that is i think the most important.

i want to change my profile pic to a sad photo but i cant find any, maybe that is again telling me not to be sad. but to listen to what the chief nurse of VLGH said, that there is a reason why i was not able to join the batch 6, and there is a better plan for me..

i saw a note, i wrote last January..it goes "my faith is larger that life's uncertainties.." i hope i can live with that.

til next time..how do you get over a bad day?pray.

first feb entry..=)

my dear blogsite, how have you been??im so sorry i wasnt able to write blogs and make my promise to update my site often. i know, reality is..im so busy at work. however, for the things that i missed, i gained something the other way..=)

i just read blogs of jiggy cruz and that was just awesome! his ideas were really great plus the grammar you know..haha

the first month of 2011 was a variety of experiences..going out of thr comfort zone and making my way into the bigger, more demanding, more complicated world. i have to travel everyday, i have to cross streets, i have to accomplish tasks given to me, i have to keep that alertness everyday..haha

oftentimes i think that the "pacing" here in Manila is faster than in Baguio or in other places..parang kulang ng isang araw sa mga gagawin..hehe at work, tension is the word..rar

i realized that we should really have time to rest ourselves from the stressors all over the environment. like during Sundays, i stay in the house, find something to read, contemplate on things, laugh with my family, text my friends and just go slow and be lazy..=)

my facebook life..oh no..anyway, it comes with it, hehe

i am looking forward to my residency training at V.luna Hospital, my goodness..the interview was nerve wracking!so how do you define fracture? can you differentiate fracture from dislocation?hahah that was the question after i explained the orthopedic seminar i attented at v.luna..hahaha i felt relief after the interview!

february na...=) wala na yata akong mahihiling pa..=)

til next time heart of mine..=)