2016:a roundabout ;)

and we're on it.. another blog entry to wrap up 2016 =)

I just got home from my tupad and like i promised myself a while ago while contemplating on some things, i will write my last blog entry for 2016.

If i will describe 2016 in a word..it is a roundabout.(not simple, complicated, merry go round haha)

a mixture of never-imagined courageous actions and a misery of tangled emotions.A year of challenges and opportunities, a year of going beyond the box! a year that improved my english? haha a year of big travels, a year of enormous blessings and up to the last day.. a year i can say i chose to be better. =)

This year is about going the distance..my mom went to HK to work, i endured the strenuous demands of finishing my thesis and undergoing the defense again for the second time around. I faced defeat and fear but when i prayed, i felt God's love that at the end of a tiring day, there He is waiting for His child to come to Him and tell how her day was.

2016, a year of travels..Laiya, Calaguas, Cebu, Palawan, Tagaytay, Boracay...a slow clap...i made it and i am gearing up for more..;) im FEU MAN graduate na, that Borland project ;) my keyboard;).. hold on there my dear reader..=)

A year of limitless blessings...yung nilalakad mo nalang yung kapilya? a blessing beyond compare. add to that my inc choir duty...#teamPalmera #teamAdobo =) my priority, my happiness, my source of inspiration and energy..my church duty =)

Lessons learned:
Life is tough, and when life puts you down, gather your courage and show life that sometimes fate has to accept its defeat.. that nothing is impossible..you are capable of doing things you can imagine. Always remember your parents who were always and will always be there for you when nobody else does. Your dad who wants nothing but the best for you. Who wants to see you go beyond your capabilities because your dad is confident he raised you to excel.. your mom who will have her heart broken if she sees you crying over stupid things and emotions you created yourself. Your mom an angel you have everyday of your life that sometimes you fail to even say thank you for treating you like the most vulnerable person, your mom who would give you even her food jut to satisfy your shallow desires. your mom who is willing to follow your orders just to make things easier for you. your mom who is willing to be apart from you just to give you a better future, a person you fail to hug..when at most times you hug your friends. Your family that you forgot, your siblings waiting for you to come home, who asks your location everytime you go home late because they care for you. they genuinely care for you.
Love. Love bravely.Show your genuine concern. Love yourself.
Pray. Pray for a heart willing to wait. A heart that sees beyond imperfections. A heart that chooses to be there and stay when nobody else will.
Live. Fulfill your aspirations. Live happily.

Thank you 2016.
a sweet kiss for you.


cheers to #amazingSurprising2017!!!

fine fresh fierce

oh blogsite.. i missed you a lot. it has been a whirlwind and a total roundabout of scenario  but thanks be to God i am still here, fine, fresh, fierce ;)

Fine
i am totally wrecked of all the challenging things ive been through.
I am still fine from all worries i had some of them i created in my ownself. Expectations i swirled from my thoughts that i was constantly insisting to happen in reality. Reality means experiencing how truth hurts-- and it is fine because it only shows how greatly you loved. I am fine despite the crushing feelings of asking myself what i did wrong and seeking my self worth amidst terrible emotions of being doubtful of my importance.

I am fine because i prayed. I am fine because of my family and friends. I am fine because i was able to experience such great emotion that led me to answer my own question why i love someone. I am fine because love never gives up. I am fine because i still believed when everyone does not. I am fine because of certainity in God's love.

Fresh
if you can think of it, you can do it..
Nothing is impossible if you permit it- ENT :)
oh such courage to step up and grow.
I can even imagine that i am doing things i was just dreaming of in the past years..
I feel fresh to start it all over again :)

Fierce
I have not seen myself angry.
But i am fierce to fulfill my church duty. I am fierce for my family, for those who appreciate me and made me feel that i am worthy. I am fierce to still understand and give extreme chance to someone who deserves it.

I am fierce to purse my dreams. To pray for someone worth having and waiting for..
and before 2016 ends.. i will be fiercer for myself so that there will be no one to hurt me.  I will be fiercer to stand up and pray for love :)

i am so happy to read my past entries and realise how ive gone from where i belonged.
I am fierce and ready for the future ahead.. :)

thank you August xD

Just a statement for August.. this month my life changed. Thank you august.. you pushed me down and down some more but thank you for shaking me and having my life revamped 360 degrees! now i am where i am ought to be :) :) it was hard so hard, but i know it will be very worth it :) :)

I am deeply motivated right now, thank you for letting me empty my hands and heart to make space for better things and lovely people :) August you made me stronger, not just hungry but starving for victory..!

the sun, wind and sand =) Calaguas Cebu Palawan escape ;)

and im on it =)

haha..where have you been lately reader? as for me, oh well..been busy but my travels and adventures will not be complete without a blog entry!

let's get started..=)

Last April, i wasnt really going to join our Calaguas trip.. but sometimes you have to say yes to that travel escape..

Oh Calaguas..such a beauty..no caption needed

We started the trip from philcoa that evening with my make up on after my pictorial that night for my graduation haha =)sorry for being late haha
That morning, we just woke up and we were already in Daet Camarines Norte.. we headed up to Vinzon's port to ride a banca for like 2-3 hours and what we saw after that water travel was way beyond my expectation.. super clear and clean shoreline. fine sand and that vibe that is welcoming us from that looooong travel.. really, the travel was worth it.. one thing i cant forget in Calaguas, is when we looked for a mat and just slept under the tree because it was so hot that time, we cant stay inside the tent. so what we did was to sleep on a mat under the tree and just enjoy the sun and the wind and the sand haha..

oh before that Calaguas trip,was the Tagaytay birthday of mam isan! haha its so nice to spend time with your friends, Bulalo in Tagaytay still the best =)

and then.....
Helloooo Visayas!!! team sulit conquers Cebu...
i think this is the most awaited travel of our group..or am i wrong because its just July???haha and there are still months in 2016 where we could go to places we listed in our bucket lists..haha

Thanks to travelbee and travelpod, to kuya Efren? kuya ronel and his technique to get clear pictures with the gopro hahaha
1st day: Canyooneering! where did i get my guts to do this kind of thing?! but no regrets..conquered!
walang tatalo kay james lucas...haha oh yes thanks to Canyoneering, all is well bati na sila haha
"its better to try and fall than never try it at all" haha

2nd day: Oslob whale watching and Sumilong sand bar
magnificent view..one of a kind experience with the fish giants haha

3rd day: Sky walk and Danggit buying
woah... fear of heights conquered talaga haha! the dinner buffet was a blast =) so nice
Danggit buying panalo true mark of Cebuanos..Daghang Salamat Cebu!


My Graduation...actually, i was not really so excited about my graduation, but at some point, when i remembered all the challenges i overcame, on top of that is my parents support to me while doing my assignments until 3 am then i still have tupad at 4am.. that thing was because of God's love. #feuMANgraduate

then i bought my own keyboard na =)

then...Palawan..=)
i came to Palawan not for travel but for work. but during my travel to palawan, i learned a word-- Bleisure- business and leisure..oh life, is about making the most out of it ;p

Puerto Princesa Underground river, mangroves, forests and plants.. such a nice place to relax and the healthy food is great =)

El Nido..yessss ive been to El Nido haha.. Kayaking check! snorkling check.. but i miss my team sulit =( small lagoon and big lagoon and secret lagoon =)

Honda Bay..great escape with GAD VAWC advocates mam isan and sir rawie haha
PAL experience..galing i was craving for tea and banana cake then suddenly yun ang snack yey!!


lessons in my little travels..
enjoy the moment
do your work first if you have work haha
dont forget pagsamba- feeling of being guided in your travels is just unexplainable
call someone you can share the memories with..=)
eat their food, be nice to people, take pictures
lastly..share smiles and positivity

really, life is meant to be traveled..

hi Bora in a while ;)
my dream Batanes...when can is see you? =)

an encounter with an 86-yr old woman who is stronger than me :)

my first entry for 2016! :)

a bit  sad that  i had no entry  for  the first two months, that includes February?!
oh well 2016 was a bit of a working year but oh yeah its just the first quarter and i think im on the right track although there were many struggles i hope i can make it through a #NoPressure2016 haha!

January! #itsOfficial for ate fle greben and Dave :) alright!! haha
February-  to infinity pool and beyond.. Laiya experience  with team sulit and opd friends :)
my instagram post explained everything during my birthday.. i am expecting of some good things to happen when actually God wants me to give my trust to him as He is trusting me on smaller things :)
This month, i just saw someone so happy  while  buying his musical instrument, it was  so priceless, seeing him so happy during that moment was beyond words to explain :)


I am writing this entry to share my experience this morning while i was a little bit in a hurry for my church duty, i had to walk 50 meters to the village gate to ride a tricycle on my way to Kapilya when an 86-year old woman asked me, sasamba ka po? i uttered "ai opo kayo din po?, sabay na po tayo" she walked slow and at the back of my mind, "baka malate ako" oh no, she talked to me like my grandmother, like any lola would talk to her grandchildren na paulit ulit ang kwento.. she carried a flashlight and told me "sabi ng anak ko, hindi daw ba ako natatakot mag isa? baka daw matumba ako sa daan, (the old woman saying to his 63 yr old son who suffered stroke whom she is taking care in their house) sabi ko sa anak ko, "hindi ako nag iisa, kasama ko ang Diyos". that words strucked me.

as we get near the tricycle station, i remembered the link i posted "being happy alone", a good read but i was looking for something in that article, at some point it did not captured or answered my inner thought about being alone and being happy. because i think being alone is a bit sad..

Anyway, that encounter with that old woman gave me a quick reminder that God is just quiet during a test, He is always there for us. And we should always trust Him. easier said than done but that's how life goes, He knows the plans He have for us..

And another great line in the article i read today at Phil Star that says - God, cant you just hurry it up?  -In a sense you are a project under construction, you are his handwork, a person becoming what He wants. Please be patient: you are a work in progress :)
now i got my answer. :)

a reminder to my friends at my age:
Sometimes we hurry too much growing up that we forget that our parents are also growing old.
appreciate our family and our parents, they are a blessing from God that we must always treasure :)

to the woman i encountered this morning, thank you for inspiring me with your firm faith :)