words and thoughts from my heart..=)

there is this song, i was happy to hear it again...
if you were my girl by a1.. haha it makes me sing talaga...! i heard it upon entering trinity cellphone shop when i was about to get my phone.. buti narinig ko ulit yun...

seen the movie miss you like crazy...
my favorite part was when august(john llyod) called bea and asked"san lakad mo?", "gusto mo ng kasama?", "hindi ako maingay pramis..".. at syempre the petronas tower conversation..=)
tapos yung ending..that finally,they were in eachothers arm...no worries, no person to hurt, no fate to fight with, because destiny favored them already..

this week was an awesome week...many good things happened,.. i really cant forget the feeling of nervousness when i was able to exchange my hellos to my long lost friend(10 years!)... hehe not just butterfly in my stomach, mariposa ata!!haha

i feel guilty in a way kasi i think im not studying like before, finals pa naman... parang im not exerting effort to get good grades..yung ncp namin, ang baba ng score...
kung sana ginawa nalang namin ng maayos...

i think i felt really overwhelmed and set aside some things that i should be doing, regrets? hindi.. medyo... unorganized lang...

im doing my best to make things better and correct my mistakes..like expecting too much, thinking that things will turn just the way i like it to be, but it isnt like that... life is unfair, and we have to accept it..

it just cant be.. that things will be like the way it is everyday, if we will have everything we desire, there will be no things to look forward to..

we cant have everything that we want.. where would we place it..???

we cant own someone...because nobody can own anyone..

we cant make something happen in just a snap..coz anything that is worth having, is worth waiting for....

hmmmm....it is the street parade and here i am sitting making my blog, listening to songs in youtube, thinking of the things that i should change to make tomorrow a better day..=) bukas cguro kami manuod ng float parade.., tapos duty sa rosario LU..." the last official hospital duty for ncm 105.." after that completion duties nalang..=)

this is a simple moment with my words and thoughts from my heart..=)

happy fabulous feb!!=)

yahoooooo!!!!!

im very happy at this moment, im twenty years old na!hehe =)

let's start the story..=)

tuesday...feb 16
during the night, i was having slight fever..and a stomach upset..im a little weak and just decided to stay on bed, sleep early and wake up early because my class was 8am..

wednesday...feb 17 (eric's bday)
the ECG lecture made me sick!!! we were forced to interpret a rhythm that for the medical students, it requires a semester to master...we did that in just 4 hours!grabe...info overload.. buti medyo i felt better during the afternoon.. i and jovi took a visit at Mario's (the restaurant i was planning to celebrate my birthday..i thought about it a year ago)..=)
ganda ng ambiance sa mario's... kaya lang..yung drinks so expensive.. calamansi juice for 75 pesos...over!!
we decided to go to sm baguio and look for a more reasonable resto.. we ate at chowking kasi late na mga 5pm, i ate congee kasi masakit tyan ko...wala aq gana kumain..=(
i ordered our cake at goldilocks..(cake for the slu bio party)..=)

thursday...feb 18 (my day)!!!! (bday din ni julius)
i was surprised because the whole class sang a birthday song for me!=)
ate mitch and ate amy gave me gifts, we were about to discuss algorithm for the megacode for next day's return demo...
ang saya... we ate at pizza hut session road.. (f4 and shiela, leanne, hailee and jen..) ravioli and pasta putanesca..wid free kisses..the chocolate ones..hehe
i went to church and prayed, thanked God for the wonderful blessings i having receiving 2o years now..=)
at the bhauz, we ate choco marble cake which i brought and the grilled chicken that my cousin brought when me and koleen was in the church..heavy dinner!=)
what a very happy birthday..=)

friday!!!!! feb 19..
the megacode rd was a storm...not just a blast!!!
it was really nervous to play as a doctor and read the ECG strip!!!! my goodness... kahit anung sabihin ni mam charo nun wala na, naka focus ako sa groupmates ko.. doctor aq eh, kailangan may gawin ako dun...puro ventricular fib!! cge compression, CPR, defib!!! hahahaha
well...patient revived!!! whoooo.... yaan nyo pag naging doctor talaga aq, alam ko na ang normal sinus rhythm...hehe NPE 3 rocks.. kami lang naka revive ng patient sa buong section!!!=)
kakaibe yun grabe...naiiyak na ako kasi nagaglit na si mam charo dahil di ko mabasa yung strip, pero nagawa namin...yesss!!!
during the nyt, after attending the tanging pagtitipon, i was running kasi mau and lei was waiting for me for like 45 minutes na! then we went for the slu bio party..

leo and ferdie(feb 5),eric (feb 17), julius and julea (feb 18)..jourbiela(feb..?)
ang saya ng party with the bios..kahit maikli q lang sila naging classmate, ang saya pa din.. sayang wala na sa slu si stephen,..
c leo baked mac, aq cake, c julius ice cream, c eric pansit, c ferdie di ko alam tska si jourbiela..
ang saya kwentuhan and dami pagkain!=)
di aq makatulog...2am na yata aq nakatulog..=)

saturday...feb 20
at d gym 830 am..seminar resume and cover letter making..=)
went to gapuz to inquire for d review...
3pm..went to palma for jen's bday celeb..hehe
ive been partying 3 days in a row now... back to reality tom...=)


with the things that happened, all i can say is im just taking the opportunity to enjoy every moment while i can still enjoy it and appreciate the blessings given to me...
im so happy to still have my parents and family around me, my loving relatives around, spend fun moments with my friends, and smile everytime im given a moment worth remembering..=)

(i realized i was not able to whisper my wishes with the candles i blew...so that means.. til next year to come!=) siguro kaya di ako nakapag wish eh wala na akong naisip na mahihiling pa..'',

happy hearts day!=)

....
how will you treat a post, when it is posted by someone who matters a lot to you?
im sure you will not ignore it,you will think hard why did that person posted that greeting..
were you the only one given?if yes,what does that mean? if not, can you still say anything?...
if for the past years youve been puzzled about what is happening then suddenly, you see yourself still puzzled, having no power to do anything, having no guts so say something, having no courage to do the right thing..one thing that is sure...i remember the quote "you are someone to someone if that someone is someone to you" (im not sure of this quote, ill try to recheck it later)... hmmm whatever!!!

this idea came to my mind this morning..
if we were given everything, we will not learn to value the importance of something so little..
maybe that is why we are only given enough or less because God does not want us to forget him, worse, He doesn't want us to do bad things and hurt others just because of the excess things we receive. we may do bad things.. but everyday, we are always given the chance to think about it, feel sorry, and ask for forgiveness...

hhmmm..another thing..
criticisms serve as reality check..it means we may be doing something too much, that unconsciously we hurt other people already... maybe criticisms were made to keep us on track..=)

and now i smile..=)
and i hope to smile everytime i remember that nothing is impossible with GOd!=)
its not NO..its just not NOW...=) yahoo!!!

"dont just wait, grow and be ready"...and make sure your heart can take it..=)
advance happy hearts day!=)

( this picture was taken when we were washing our uniforms in Lepanto..simple bonding pero ang saya ng bonding! =D )

so here i am, sitting in front of the computer trying to remember everything that happened from th last time i was able to post my last blog...haha

i have attending to many things weeks ago and managing things for our class, the last time i made my blog was the birthday of my elementary classmate,nikko(its nice he accepted my friend request in facebook after 3 months?).. hehe =)

i posted my last blog just before our trip for our duty in bethany icu ward... that was a learning experience with mam libria..i really tried not to sleep during the shift which was 11-7 bec i was a bit scared with the icu ward, good thing no patient went to heaven during our duty..whew...!

the next week, i got busy for our yearbok.. the forms have to be encoded and burned to a cd. but thanks to my classmates who helped me finish the task..

after that week, we were so anxious about our duty at lepanto, it was dubbed as the worst duty place to be for the UB nursing students, aside from Bontoc which is really far (i think the farthest affilated hospital of our school)..

So this is how the experience begins....
i dont know what to bring, im not sure what to pack in my bag.. sweaters, blankets, utensils, because my classmate told me that it is cold there..

the trip was a bit relaxed, we saw the devstations brough about by the storms that passed. imagine a road cut in the middle. i mean, the white line in the middle. we had good time making fun of kuya aries in the ven..we said we were in wish ko lang and kuya aries was about to go home in his place in cebu. hahaha the chicken dung trucks gave us headache!!!!eewww

it was almost 7pm when we arrived at the staff house, it was a big place but 4 groups would be there so the space was not enough.. we were able to go to the market before our duty (thanks to ken)

the hospital was like 25 meters away we have to walk through the stairs going up..the scenery was mountains in every side..hehe

the first day was done..4hours duty and 4 hours sleep..tnx! there were only 4 patients during that time. but during the last day, there was like 20 patients and some of us have to attent to 2 patients at a time. that was ok,none of the patients was toxic..=)

we had 1 nsd case equal to 3 cases.at least hindi kami na zero!!!
the day goes like this..
in the morning, i, ken and shiela would go to the market and buy our foods for lunch and dinner...we cook 2 1/2 kilos of rice every meal!imagine that but we have to nourish ourselves bec. being in the graveyard shift is a bit threatening to the body...=)

ang dami ko pa gusto ikwento!! nauso yung "chugz" na tawagan..
what i like the most during our shift is the time that we have to eat our last supper at lepanto, the group prayed together and shout "nursing win"!!! that so nice...=)
the idea of making a new t-shirt for the group came in so i have to look forward to it..=)
and dami namin paglain, pero 350 lang nagastos namin para sa pagkain individually,. for 1 week yun ah! galing ng mga cook namin...kuya aries, jayson, yvans, ian!!!!! c ken pa pala..=)
i wont forget the sinigang encouter, c aiz hindi na kilala luto ng bf nya!!!hahaha

time passed a lil slow but i think it has a reason behind it, it learn how every moment is special, must be treasured because it will never happen again....medyo sad kc tahimik sa bhauz when i got home, silence broke my heart.. namiz ko yung ingay namin..

grabe yung byahe pabalik..omg!!! muntik talaga aq mag vomit...ouch!super sabi nga ni shiela para laming kinayod na buko 360 degrees nothing beats halsema!!! roller coaster ibang level!!!!

and now back to baguio..looking forward for panagbenga 2010!=)
if ever other ideas come to my mind, ill try to post it so that ill remember the good times i had during my college days...

this blog can be summed up to:
"moments enjoyed with friends will be treasured, it will make me smile over and over again..=) "

midterm week ahead...go go go!